The surviving members of Linkin Park have put out an official music video for 'One More Light' in memory of Chester
, and noooooooooooo I can't handle this. It's a beautiful video, and in a way it's cathartic, and I'm glad to know they've been doing something creative to work through the pain, but also I sobbed so hard while watching this that my chest physically hurt afterwards. These poor guys. I wish I could hug all of them.
Mike did a radio interview
as well, and it's really good to hear from him, but also there's a part where his voice starts to get unsteady and it's absolutely unbearable. I think I'm torn at the moment between 'it's really good to hear from the guys and know they're still around and haven't just stopped functioning' and 'I've spent so much time worrying about the pain they're in, and now that pain is even more real because I can see and hear it'.
Linkin Park is still my primary fandom, which means that I've been thinking about this most of the day, every day, for two solid months. It's easier now, but it's still a bit miserable. I'm desperately awaiting the new Dangan Ronpa
game's release, hoping it will successfully distract me. Please just let me worry about fictional
deaths for a while. No more getting invested in real people. I've learnt my lesson, I swear.
This whole thing has given me a little more faith in humanity, at least. I've seen so much kindness, so many complete strangers reaching out to each other, offering love and support to Chester's friends and fans and family. At heart, people really want to help those in pain.
On a lighter note, here are a couple of incredible things I have seen recently:
- this reinterpretation of High School Musical's 'Get Your Head in the Game'
. (This link is actually to a reblog on the Tumblr account I secretly have, but I wouldn't recommend following it, because it's nothing but sobbing uncontrollably over Linkin Park. This blog is still the place I actually talk about things. Tumblr doesn't really suit me.)
- the trailer for American Vandal
. Rei and I booted up Netflix, saw the description for this show, went '???????????????????
' and had to watch the trailer. We're afraid to watch the show itself in case it doesn't live up to the trailer's promise.